welcome to Silently Into The Night
Hello and welcome! We are a modern-day reincarnation AU of the novel/donghua/drama Mó Dào Zǔ Shī, also known as Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation, Chén Qíng Lìng, or The Untamed. The characters have been reincarnated into modern day, where some have regained their memories of their cultivation days, while others have not yet. Original characters are accepted, but please have a good story for them if they were a cultivator in their past life. The RP takes place in Palo Alto, California, and is set in the current year.
Modern Reincarnation AU
silently into the night redeim
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updates
JULY 07, 2020
And we're officially open! Feel free to leave questions or chat with us in the cbox. :)
JULY 06, 2020
Soft opening of the site!
The Runaway (Zizhen/Jingyi)
A-Yuan
MDZS Character
Yes
Questioning
Single
Velexa
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Aug 17, 2020 17:59:46 GMT -8
Post by A-Yuan on Aug 17, 2020 17:59:46 GMT -8
A-Yuan felt like such a burden to not only Jingyi, but to Zizhen. The poor guy had met him not even 24 hours ago and A-Yuan already had him spending money on him, driving him around and mindfully giving him space.
When Jingyi came to his door and opened it, leaning down to his level he just couldn't take it anymore. He launched himself at Jingyi, burying his face in his chest and allowing all the tears and fears he'd been holding inside to come out. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry," was all he could gasp out.
He didn't know why he was sorry though. Was it because he was a burden? Was his mere existence a burden? No, that wasn't right, it couldn't be. He clung to Jingyi as the sobs racked his body and prayed, it was all he could think to do, but not one of the many Catholic prayers he'd been taught to recite, no instead he just tried speaking directly to God.
A-Yuan went still, in an instant. He pulled himself from Jingyi's arms, and looked from him to Zizhen, "what happened? Why am I crying?" he asked in Chinese. Sizhui had appeared again.
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Ethan Zizhen Stone
MDZS Character
No
Pansexual
Single
Redeim
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Aug 17, 2020 19:06:37 GMT -8
Post by Ethan Zizhen Stone on Aug 17, 2020 19:06:37 GMT -8
Zizhen already felt awkward as A-Yuan began crying, but felt a chill as the boy suddenly stopped crying and spoke Chinese. "I thought you didn't know Chinese?!" He asked, his voice high. He was glad he had stopped the car or else he might have crashed.
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Lan Jingyi
MDZS Character
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Aug 17, 2020 20:49:52 GMT -8
Post by Lan Jingyi on Aug 17, 2020 20:49:52 GMT -8
Jingyi cradled A-Yuan to him, hoping that this was a breakthrough sort of crying and not a he made things worse sort of crying. When A-Yuan did the thing again where he did the trauma repression thing and could only remember his Sizhui memories, Jingyi said under his breath, "Fuck," and then quickly the Zizhen in English, "Not mostly, it's complicated."
He didn't know what to do, but he grabbed A-Yuan operating on Sizhui memories by the hand and said, switching to a register of classical Chinese that would be comfortably aligned with Sizhui's memories and something that would fly over Zizhen's head, "Come with me, there was a cultivation mistake. Let me explain just the two of us."
He did his best attempt to lead A-Yuan over to a seat under a tree. He had a hope that if he could be like, we need to meditate, Zizhen will watch our back, A-Yuan would give him a chance to solve this, and he could figure out what needed to be done. He had no clue who to reach out to though. Uncle had fixed it last time, and Wangji-ge was strong enough that he probably could, and he'd been there. He had a horrible idea, which was to get A-Yuan to focus on his physical form and why his back was like that right now, and he figured that it was still worth trying first rather than breaking A-Yuan's confidence to Xichen-ge or Wangji-ge or worse, Uncle, and only reaching out if that didn't work. He just hoped that Zizhen would actually stay put.
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A-Yuan
MDZS Character
Yes
Questioning
Single
Velexa
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Aug 17, 2020 21:04:33 GMT -8
Post by A-Yuan on Aug 17, 2020 21:04:33 GMT -8
Sizhui followed Jingyi to the spot under the tree, "where are we?" he asked looking around. He looked at Zizhen by the strange palanquin and was confused. He had no idea what that was. He reached up and found he didn't have his headband.
"I'm not supposed to be here, am I?" he asked. He knew something was wrong, and was much calmer than A-Yuan. He shifted uncomfortably, his back was stinging and itching. "A-Yuan isn't doing well, is he?"
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Ethan Zizhen Stone
MDZS Character
No
Pansexual
Single
Redeim
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Aug 17, 2020 22:17:55 GMT -8
Post by Ethan Zizhen Stone on Aug 17, 2020 22:17:55 GMT -8
Zizhen was still confused, even more so when Jingyi spoke in Chinese but he didn't understand any of it. "Maybe it's a dialect..." He muttered to himself after the two were sitting on the bench. He watched them carefully, but stayed in the car. He held out hope that one day this whole thing would be explained to him, and he wouldn't be kept in the dark forever, but he also respected he and A-Yuan had only met yesterday and there was still trust that had to be built before he could be "in" on it. He sent a text to his mom that they hit a minor bump on the way, that they and the car were fine, they would just be a little later than initially expected, before looking back up to the two and seeing A-Yuan staring in his direction. He gave him an awkward wave before returning his attention to his phone.
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Lan Jingyi
MDZS Character
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Aug 17, 2020 22:39:21 GMT -8
Post by Lan Jingyi on Aug 17, 2020 22:39:21 GMT -8
Jingyi was glad that A-Yuan followed him, and he initially hesitated over what to say to A-Yuan operating with Sizhui memories only. He was a little relieved that the Sizhui part of A-Yuan seemed a little bit more aware that he wasn't where he was supposed to be this time though. He figured that he could at least try just talking him through this. He did his best to keep his voice steady as he spoke, "You are A-Yuan, but like clearly you only remember our past life right now, you're you too, just a different version of you. That made more sense in my head, but I'm hoping that you have your you version of you ability to stay calm in hard situations because you're supposed to be the calm one."
He sighed, taking a minute to gather his thoughts again. He said, "I think that what's upsetting and hurting in A-Yuan's head is making him block out everything but the you part sometimes. This is the second time it's happened now. I think, maybe if you can get properly calm, and we meditated, and you focused on your physical form and who A-Yuan is, it might help you get unblocked and maybe he'll be more calm. I'll be here and to soothe him too. You're not supposed to be here like this, and hopefully, as A-Yuan can work through where he is with his own memories and trauma, this will be easier."
He winced a little bit and asked, uncertain, "Can we try? Please? I can lead the meditation if you want?"
He focused on A-Yuan, across from him, and was ready to start talking through a meditation if A-Yuan agreed. Granted, he knew that there was also a chance that A-Yuan would just pass out, that had kind of happened last time. If that happened, he figured he would carry him back to the car and sit in the back with him.
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A-Yuan
MDZS Character
Yes
Questioning
Single
Velexa
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Aug 17, 2020 22:58:23 GMT -8
Post by A-Yuan on Aug 17, 2020 22:58:23 GMT -8
Sizhui settled into a comfortable position, "mediating is easy for me, we're from the Lan Clan. We meditate all the time," he said with a smile playing across his lips.
Because Sizhui was in charge, or his memories, he didn't need Jingyi to guide him in. In his head was a bad place. He saw A-Yuan curled up on the ground in the fetal position crying. Sizhui crouched down next to him, "you're not supposed to be here. You're supposed to be out there."
A-Yuan looked up at Sizhui, "it's safer in here. You function better than I do, you go out there," he sniffled.
Sizhui shook his head, "I know it's hard but you have so much love and support around you out there. You just need to look for it in the right places. You are not a burden. You're a blessing. I need you to believe that," he said, offering his hand.
A-Yuan wasn't entirely sure he believed him, but knew hanging out in this weird limbo place probably wasn't great for him either. He opened his eyes and looked at Jingyi, "we can go to Monterey, then come back and get the cats. Then maybe we can figure out my next steps together?" he said quietly, reaching out and touching the ribbon tied to Jingyi's wrist.
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Ethan Zizhen Stone
MDZS Character
No
Pansexual
Single
Redeim
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Aug 17, 2020 23:13:48 GMT -8
Post by Ethan Zizhen Stone on Aug 17, 2020 23:13:48 GMT -8
Zizhen chanced a glance back up at his friends and was relieved when it seemed like things were settling finally, or so he hoped. He shuffled around in the car a bit, getting more comfortable as he waited for them to return.
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Lan Jingyi
MDZS Character
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Aug 17, 2020 23:21:47 GMT -8
Post by Lan Jingyi on Aug 17, 2020 23:21:47 GMT -8
Jingyi was so relieved when A-Yuan was actually A-Yuan again that a little choked sound came out of his mouth, and he threw his arms around his friend again, saying, "Oh, I'm so glad. Thank you. We can figure out the next steps, and we can figure out who can help and who to tell. I'm really glad that I didn't have to call Wangji-ge, or Xichen-ge, or Uncle to figure out how to handle that without being able to ask you being you."
He bit his tongue over telling A-Yuan that he'd scared him. Simply taking the ends of his ribbon and wrapping A-Yuan's fingers around it, trying to show him that he had permission to touch it, especially if he found it comforting. He said softly, "First step though, Monterrey. Let's go back to the car, and I can sit in the back with you if Zizhen is OK with it. It's going to be OK eventually, I will do everything I can to make that happen."
He took A-Yuan's hand and started steering them back to the car, asking Zizhen as he opened the back door, "Are you OK with me sitting back here with A-Yuan at least for a little?"
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A-Yuan
MDZS Character
Yes
Questioning
Single
Velexa
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Aug 17, 2020 23:29:53 GMT -8
Post by A-Yuan on Aug 17, 2020 23:29:53 GMT -8
A-Yuan was feeling comforted by playing with Jingyi's ribbon. He followed him back to the car, embarrassed.
"I'm so sorry Zizhen. I wish I could explain what's going on, but I'm not even sure myself. Thank you for driving us." He got back into the car and waited for Jingyi to get in and for them to leave.
He cleared his throat and said, "should we play a game or something.... to try and make this car ride less awkward... sorry guys..."
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Ethan Zizhen Stone
MDZS Character
No
Pansexual
Single
Redeim
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Aug 23, 2020 17:57:49 GMT -8
Post by Ethan Zizhen Stone on Aug 23, 2020 17:57:49 GMT -8
Zizhen was relieved when the other two returned to the car, and let out a sigh, "It's fine, A-Yuan. I'm sure in time, you will tell me. It's been a long... about 12-hours, but you and I have only known each other for that long, and I can respect that you are closer to Jingyi because you have known him longer and know him better, and therefore trust him to talk you through something more than I could." He bit his bottom lip after that, stopping himself before he rambled any more and starting up the car again and heading back on the road.
He let Jingyi and A-Yuan decide on a game since he should be paying attention to the road, but a part of him hoped it was something he could also play.
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Lan Jingyi
MDZS Character
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Oct 5, 2020 16:59:08 GMT -8
Post by Lan Jingyi on Oct 5, 2020 16:59:08 GMT -8
Jingyi was immensely relieved that Zizhen was so cool about things. He gave his roommate a big, relieved smile before scooting into the back seat next to A-Yuan, buckling himself in carefully and then gently leaning his side against A-Yuan's. He mostly just wanted to wrap his arms around his friend and hold him close, but Jingyi knew that things were still a little unsettled between them. However, he was pretty sure that this whole incident had been a step in the right direction.
He glanced between A-Yuan and Zizhen and said, "Are there games that people normally play on road trips? I've never had a road trip before, and usually I've just read on long trips, or slept."
He had hated long trips for a lot of his life because they were quiet and generally boring until he got where he was going, but at least in middle and high school he'd been able to use them to study so that when he wasn't in the car or on a train or plane he'd had more time to do not studying things. This would have been an exciting adventure if it wasn't filled with anxiety over A-Yuan.
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A-Yuan
MDZS Character
Yes
Questioning
Single
Velexa
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Oct 6, 2020 18:03:22 GMT -8
Post by A-Yuan on Oct 6, 2020 18:03:22 GMT -8
A-Yuan chuckled at Jingyi, "you would just read or sleep. Don't forget about eating."
He looked up at Zizhen in the front seat, "it should be something Zizhen can play too, so easy enough for the driver to engage in..." A-Yuan chewed on his lip a little, "I'm used to long car trips... but they're usually filled with the sisters singing. I'd rather not do that. How about word association? Sorry.. that's lame."
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Ethan Zizhen Stone
MDZS Character
No
Pansexual
Single
Redeim
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Oct 19, 2020 21:31:23 GMT -8
Post by Ethan Zizhen Stone on Oct 19, 2020 21:31:23 GMT -8
Zizhen grinned, happy A-Yuan also felt he should get to join in the game. "That's not lame. It could be fun, and might also help us get to know each other." He said.
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Lan Jingyi
MDZS Character
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Oct 26, 2020 6:32:33 GMT -8
Post by Lan Jingyi on Oct 26, 2020 6:32:33 GMT -8
Jingyi laughed and told A-Yuan, "No, no, neither Uncle nor my parents believed that eating was an in the car activity, so I didn't even get to snack in the back of the car."
He tilted his head to the side, looking at A-Yuan, and asked, "How does word association work? I know what the words mean, but I don't think that I'm familiar with it as a game."
He wondered if this was one of those cultural things where people in the US had all learned this when they were kids in school, or if it wasn't a real game but just the concept of associating words. He wasn't sure how that would be a game, though Jingyi did like words, so some sort of word game would probably be fun. Something word based did seem like something that Zizhen would be able to participate in though, so that was good.
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